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Tuesday, December 30th, 2003
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Wooooooooooooooooooo! Its my birthday people! *Pokes everyone.* Wish me happy birthday??!!
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Monday, December 29th, 2003
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I have no idea what i have done to my journal but it cannot be good! <:(
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Monday, December 22nd, 2003
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I was watching 'today' before and this woman trained her dog to mime along with music. It just struck me; my life isn't that bad.
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Thursday, December 18th, 2003
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Im 26 in 12 days NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
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Saturday, December 6th, 2003
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I love battery acid, and I love barley wine.
My stomach burns goddamn it, battery acid is not good! Peptic..is it? Peptic ulcer...yeah.
I must be stoned, in my eyes not my brain cos then i wouldn't be writing this. Im stoned in a guess-work way. Not in real mind. So yeah...im doused in liquored guilt tonight, facing the whore loneliness isn't good, im not gratefull and im not dead. One thing I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something that nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened. Hi, i fallen and i can't get up, i just get more kicks in the stomach from people.I am really ashamed of myself to tell you that we have not been able to find out the real cause of suicide. All of you tell me now how you feel...come on then?
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Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
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あなたの名前は何であるか。私はこれは右でないことを私が言っている何を考えを有しないことを賭ける
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Sunday, November 23rd, 2003
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I am very sad, everything is very wrong. Im going to get drunk and use the brain machine on myself, its like this cylinder that has a 100 watt bulb and it spins and it reflects stuff on the eyelids and its like a dream. Nothings going to get better for me now, how do I find a rainbow with eyes so colourless and blind?
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Sunday, November 9th, 2003
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Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
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My computer is working again kinda, stupid bt broadband is messing it up.
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Monday, November 3rd, 2003
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I feel really down today, the weather here reflects the way I feel. I'd really like to be happy but I just can't be, im on the most powerfull anti-depression drugs there are yet still I feel bad. I suppose they are helping me in a way, they are stopping me hurting myself which lots of sad people seem to do to themselves. They give terrible headaches though that can go on for hours.
Im lonely today too, I wan't people around me but when people are around I feel annoyed and I don't wan't anyone, I just can't decide what I wan't. I suppose that your time at highschool reflects whats going to happen in your adult life, I was always the small, loser that didn't fit in anywhere, didn't have too many friends either. I should stop feeling sorry for myself and get my life sorted out but whats the point? Theres nothing to live for, no friends or anything like that, just a family who hate me and would like nothing more than for me to disappear off the face of the planet. Im sick of everything, nothing matters.
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Saturday, November 1st, 2003
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I wen't out again earlier and I met this fab Canadian. She is like this radient beam. I love Canadians they are so laid back and open-hearted they are so cool. I am going to find more Canadians and keep them forever and ever since they are such a friendly bunch. Up to now I have 5 Canadians and I hope to add to my collection soon. *cuddles all Canadians reading this.* I am obsessed with them.
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Oh the computers stopped working too, Im using a library one. It feels good to have got some air.
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| Time: | 2:06 pm. |
| Mood: |  intimidated. |
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Like everyone knows it was halloween last night and I had some sweets in because I knew loads of kids would come knocking at my door. I had about 10 groups of kids knock during the night and the door wen't again at about 11 so I opened it thinking it would be more kids but it wasn't it was the rudies. They threw eggs at me, beat me up and then took my wallet, so I crawled back into my house and locked the door. At about 12 someone started banging on my door and I refused to answer it, they had come back to finish my evening off. I heard them yelling the trick or treat rhyme loudly and then they laughed and yelled "TRICK...YOU DIRTY GRUNGER!" and then they lit fireworks and put them through my mail box. Of course my house wen't on fire kinda and I got hurt but luckily the neighbours called the fire dudes and they came and got me soon enough. I have got a few minor burns from that so Im quite lucky really, I managed to get out, and I have two black eyes and a sore nose and rib from when they beat me up. The police wan't to see me later on about it all, and I need some work doing to my house because of the fireworks. I am really scared now since I feel threatened in my own home.
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Wednesday, October 29th, 2003
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Meine namen Michael und im ein grosser fetter haariger monster, denke ich wirklich im homosexuell. Meine mama denkt im speziell.
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Bill worked at the pickle factory. One day he came home from work and had a weird impulse to stick his penis in the pickle slicer, he eventually told his wife and she said that he should go to the doctor. The next day when Bill came home from work he had a sad look on his face like he had done something bad.
"Oh Bill, You didn't, did you?"
"Yes I did hunny."
"Oh Bill, how could you? What happened?"
"I got fired."
"And what happened to the pickle slicer?"
"She got fired too."
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The pope came over to his 3 most trusted nuns and said "You 3 never sin, so you can all do any sin you wan't and I shall forgive you."
They came back after going out and committing the sins, the third nun was holding back a laugh.
The pope said to the first nun, "What is your sin?"
"I killed someone" replied the first nun.
"Your sin is forgiven." said the pope "Drink from the holy water"
The third nun snickers and then smiles.
The pope asked the second nun what was her sin.
"I robbed a bank." said the second nun.
"Your sin is forgiven, drink from the holy water." said the pope.
The third nun started to laugh openly.
"And what did you do?" said the pope to the third nun.
"I took a whizz in the holy water!"
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(This is NASTY.)
There was a guy and a girl and they were doing it. They did it several times using a condom each time. When they were done the guy threw all his condoms, even the good ones out the window because he didn't wan't to use them anymore. They layed around for a while and the girl said "Lets do it again!" The guy decided he wanted to use a condom. "Just a sec, I'll be right back." he said.
He wen't outside to get his condoms and he saw a little boy sitting on the ground playing with them. "Hey, little boy would you mind giving me those?" The guy asked.
"Sure, but tell me what they are first."
"Well, um...they are twinkies!" Blurted the guy.
"Well I will give them to you for twenty bucks!" The guy agreed and took the condoms.
The little boy wen't home and told his mum that he just sold some twinkies to a guy for twenty bucks.
"Oh really. Thats nice!" said his mum.
"Yeah! But I think I ripped him off. I licked out all the cream filling before I gave them to him."
(Thats sick huh?)
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Knock, knock.
Whos there?
Ineedap.
Ineedap who?
Ha ha ha ha!
(K, that was just lame.)
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There was a boy, he had a younger brother and they shared a bedroom. One day the older brother asked his girlfriend to make love to him, she answered yes and they wen't back to his place. The little boy was asleep on the bottom bunk, so they wen't on to the top bunk. They decided to speak in code, if they wanted to change position they would shout "Tomato." But if she wanted him to go faster she would shout "Lettuce." They were soon at it, and making loads of noise. All you could hear was "Lettuce!" "Tomato!" "Tomato!" "Lettuce!" Then suddenly the younger brother woke up and shouted "Oi! You two up there! Would you stop making sandwiches?! You are getting mayonnaise on my face!
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Ew, weren't they gross?
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Friday, October 24th, 2003
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Grrrrr...my computer is messed up with a virus. Hope it didn't send to anyone on my contact list, they'd best virus scan their computer just incase. It would be funny if it had sent to the people on my contact list because I hate most of them now.
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Many people consider suicide as something that is a terrible act and alot of religious people believe you will go to hell if you take your life instead of waiting for God to decide when your life ends. Other people consider it a selfish act and that the person is only thinking about themselves and no one else.
Personally i believe you should have the right to chose when to die. I believe that if you are in so much misery that you want to die and then finally commit the act of suicide it should not be seen as a sin. You simply decided it was right for your life to end at that moment, it was no one elses decision but yours. I also do not think it is selfish to commit suicide. You may feel that it would be better for the people you love to lose to to solve problems that you seems to think you are causing, even though you may not be. I am not saying in anyway that suicide is a perfect way out of this world, because i think other methods should be tried and it should be a last resort in a person's life. Its stupid that its illegal, when people are dead they have no time to think about it anyway. If the people that love them are hurt they should also understand that the person must have been very sad and it was best for them to die.
Similarly with euthanasia, I think that if someone is in so much pain that they feel it would be better to die I believe they should be able to have a close family member who they trust to help put them out of their misery. This situation should only apply to people who know they are going to die soon anyway. I think euthanasia is fine, I do not see anything wrong with it really. If people have a bad illness and its going to be a slow dead then they should have the right to choose to die. I think if people want euthanasia enough then its not fair to get in their way and try and stop them because its their choice and no one elses.
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Sunday, October 19th, 2003
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My ex-gf came round to see me today. It was quite strange getting to use my voice. She said that she really wan'ts me back and that we were made for each other. I don't know what to do, I am really lonely and at least having someone around might give me a bit of security even if it is her. I just don't know how I feel, one minute I am up and the next I am down, I don't think I really like her but I don't know. She said everything would be different this time, she looks different even. She even said that she'd stop taking my money to go out on shopping sprees and to buy herself rings and other stuff like that, she swears she will never harm me again. I think I believe her too, she seems pretty serious about it and maybe she has changed. But then again, she said this last time and things took a turn for the worst so maybe she is being a liar again. Oh man, I dunno. I can't make up my mind if I wan't her back or not, she may really mean all the things she says.
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Saturday, October 18th, 2003
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| Time: | 11:01 pm. |
| Mood: | anxious. |
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Oh my god I need someone to talk to before I go completely insane. Oh well...I guess I'll go to bed since theres no one to talk to.
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